Promises

A promise is a promise

No matter how it goes

A promise is a promise

No matter how it grows

I write for love

I write for life

I write for hate

I write for spite

I write because

What I want

What I love

Can't be found

In what I read

Like a sparrow to dove

Women who save the world

Women who are knights

Women who fight for themselves

Women who fight for right

Black heroines who are loved

Cherished and admired

Black heroines who are princesses

Trapped in spires

Though my heart lay in fantasy

In worlds yet unseen

I never see myself

In the pages between

Am I not worthy?

Am I not strong?

Am I not beautiful?

Am I so wrong?

I want the unthinkable

I want it more and more

A lesbian knight saving her black princess

Perhaps by a seashore

There is no moral to this tale

No happy after all

Just pain and hurt and want

Bruises of the fall

I want to say so much

Fight with all my might

You will not reduce me so

I won't suffer this plight!

But I am tired now

And disappointed in myself besides

I should have avoided the woes

That nightly, my soul rides

I should have been stronger

I should have been better

I should have known more

I should have fought together

With whom, I can't say

Just someone that's not here

Because in their absence

I can blame myself for my fear

Fear of home

Fear of roam

Fear of health

Fear of wealth

I don't fear these things

I just can't get them

The glass overhead

Covered in men

Who clear their throats at me

"Ahem"

White asses overhead

All the livelong day

Forgive me if once in a while

I dare to look away